Broke Boyz From Fresno
Hey everyone it's Martin from the Broke Boyz From Fresno Podcast, my goal here is to entertain, inspire, and uplift our community. I'm all about keeping it real, sharing my daily struggles, and motivating others who might be going through the same. Join me as we navigates life’s challenges, supports one another, and builds a stronger, more connected community together.
Broke Boyz From Fresno
Balancing Creativity, Friendship, and Mental Health
Have you ever felt like your creative partnerships were dragging you down more than lifting you up? This episode of Broke Boyz takes you behind the scenes into the emotional and professional challenges of working with less dedicated collaborators. We share our own experiences and highlight the importance of choosing business partners who share your enthusiasm and commitment. Learn how successful groups like Eliminate have inspired us to consider forming a content house, and why genuine partnership is crucial for achieving your dreams.
But it's not all about business. We also get deeply personal as we discuss the struggles of maintaining friendships and personal growth when interests and goals diverge. From family responsibilities to the impact of consistent partying, we explore how differing mindsets can strain relationships and hinder progress. Listen in as we emphasize the necessity of self-awareness and the courage to face your inner demons, sharing our heartfelt journeys through mental health struggles and the constant battle against anger and trauma.
Finally, we reflect on the importance of vulnerability and self-acceptance. Amidst the setbacks and challenges, it's crucial to find peace within and keep pushing forward towards your dreams. We extend our gratitude to our listeners for their continued support and encourage everyone to follow us on social media for more inspiring content. Tune in to hear how we navigate these complex issues and stay optimistic about the future, with a special shoutout to DJ for his openness and dedication.
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Intro Music by Rockstar Turtle- Broke Boyz (999)
All right, man, another one, another one, I'm back. Yeah, we got our.
Speaker 2:DJ back again in the building that was good that was good. Let's go ahead and throw the intro. That way we get this early on and we don't forget, right, we them broke boys from the hood.
Speaker 4:We on them. Issues understood Won't catch us lacking. We that good, we always winning like we should. We flying high, we butterfly up to the sky. No way you catching us. Goodbye. We, the guy, we make it out alive. I'll never leave my dogs behind. We stick together like we signed, we shooting stars, one of a kind. We undefeated, just resign.
Speaker 2:Alright, we are back with another episode of the Broke Boys. I'm here joined with my boy DJ again. We are back with another episode of the Broke Boys. I'm here joined with my boy DJ again, and we are going to do another open mic session. I loved it. I loved the last session that we did. It was so smooth and everything went out perfect, all in one take.
Speaker 1:Yeah, no stopping. I mean, we really handled that last one. But, like I said, that's what happens when you get a certified yapper on here.
Speaker 2:Yeah, for sure. I've been thinking about different art for the Broke Boys, for the Broke Boys logo, so the original one was Broke Boys from Fresno Broken Heart microphone. I sat down with one of the collaborators that I have and we came up with this concept art. The only reason why we haven't, um, I sat down with, uh, one of the collaborators that I have and, um, we came up with this concept art. The only reason why we haven't done anything is just because, um, I'm a little picky with certain stuff, right? So the artwork that we're going with is the broke. It was going to be like the fresno skyline with broke boys, clouds, a little bit more of like a scenery look to it right, right um, I the colors that I wanted to keep obviously purple and, uh, the baby blue.
Speaker 2:Right, those are the colors that I I still want to keep right I know I switched into the white background, so it really just depends on, like, how everything comes out. Now I know that there's nothing set in stone because, again, I'm still switching everything around. I still want it to be perfectly executed because that new look is also going to be the new look for the upcoming brookway shirts, right? So I know I have another collaboration and I'm still waiting on those pending details. And I don't know, man, the more I think about it, the more I'm just like I want to get, like I want to say like I just want to throw out a number. I'm going to throw out a number Like 50 shirts and just go around Fresno and just handing them out or doing some content, you know, just giving out to random people, to random strangers, and just you know throwing it out there.
Speaker 1:That's not a bad idea, and not a lot of people have the balls to do that. And when I say that, I mean a lot of people are so focused on income and profit margins and stuff like that. That's a huge one. People are going to remember that gift, whether they're less fortunate or whether they're just like, oh shit, like who is this guy? What's Broke Boys? You know what I'm saying. Just putting that impression on them. They might not even know you, or they do know you.
Speaker 1:And they get to rep the merch now they get to talk good about you. You know their family and their friends. It does something that sales just can't do. I mean, yeah, if you really like broke boys that much, you'll buy the merchandise off their website. You'll be helping Martin out with what he does. But it's like doing that alone, that idea, I feel like that's just so wholesome. It's its own thing on its own yeah.
Speaker 2:And my whole goal is just to throw the word out there. Yeah.
Speaker 2:You know, I just hey, recognize little by little more recognition in the local area and just that's my whole goal. And I know like, hey, not everyone can afford a shirt, right, but if there's any way that I can go around and be like, hey, here's this shirt, you know, I would love just for you to to rock it, take a picture of it, tag me in it, whatever it is right, show some sort of support and and love to the, to the community.
Speaker 2:You know right so that's just, uh, one idea that I got with that shirt. Um, we had, we had the idea with the first launch, with the first official launch. The only thing that happened was first launch with the first official launch. The only thing that happened was um. The other guy did not follow through um. The original idea was is to give it to friends and family the broke boy shirt and it was going to be an exclusive and um, at first we had all right, we got the shirts, we're gonna go, we're to record us giving the shirts to people and all this other stuff.
Speaker 2:Right. Right. Then there was this weird transition of him. You know, I think he got broken up with or he got dumped at the time, so that whole process was awkward as it is. So, it didn't make it any easier and I wish things were different. I wish things that that wouldn't had happened, like gone that way yeah because it ruined everything that we had built up for it.
Speaker 2:Right, because again, we dropped a lot of money for for the shirts, yeah, to give them out to people. Again, these shirts weren't, weren't cheap, it was a lot of money to to drop, right, and um, and again, like it was just one of those things like, come on, bro, like this is to benefit us, it's to benefit content, right, I ended up scrapping the whole fucking idea because of how, uh, inconsistent and un, how can I say it? Like the inconsistency and the lack of Balance, almost Not balance, but lack of effort and emotion to it. Right, like it was just so plain, so serious and I get it. You know, hey, you got broken up with, yeah, but hey, fake it till you make it motherfucker. Yeah.
Speaker 2:This is for us, that we got to push forward, right, but it just wasn't. It didn't go through.
Speaker 1:It didn't go well and, to think about it, I think that was his first relationship, yeah. So I mean, it's kind of hard for him. I get it, but at the same time, when you have something that's way like, you have something that's worth losing. You know what I'm saying. This is a lifetime opportunity.
Speaker 1:Not too many people can come up with the idea, the drive or even the time to do something like this, and you both had that yeah, and even when you didn't have time, you made time, yeah, and to just crash out of a relationship and to let that completely like crumble what you had or what you were creating.
Speaker 1:it's like it's a double l, it's a double loss, it's a double loss, Because now you, you done lost the relationship, but everything you were working so hard for whether it was a career base or something that you really dreamed of that's gone too, and you let it slip. You can't blame nobody else but yourself. You can, you can let shit make or break you, and if you let it break you, bro, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, buddy, but it just wasn't meant for you then yeah.
Speaker 2:That's the hardest thing, too, is like there was just so much lack of creativity and you could tell Everyone told me about it. Yeah. Everyone says like dude, you carry the conversation. I mean, you can notice the difference, the shift. Right. What's he really bringing to the table? Right and the only thing was is this that he was just my co-host Right and I kept defending him. I kept like no, no, no.
Speaker 1:And that's the cold part. Like, have you heard what's going on with Yachty and Caribou? No, no, no, oh man, what's going on with that? I don't even want to. You got to look into it. It's pretty deep. But just to put it into perspective, is that it's caribou basically met up with a fan. The fan said, oh, I spoke with her for hella long and she said, basically they were bullying me, yeah, and I left the group, yada, yada. And then yada gets on live and he's just like oh, you're smearing my name. Like you're over here trying to say that, like, like I funded you, like I did every I wrote your music, and you're gonna try and talk smack about me and what I did, like that I wasn't a good friend. And are we bullying you this end of 30s?
Speaker 1:like, bro, I put watches on your wrist, yeah, you know, I'm saying and it just goes to show that sometimes the people that are like co-hosting or the people that are in the main foundational group, there's a lot that you can't see behind the scenes. Yeah, and it can be one of the main people and you're like, oh no, they would never fall out like that. I couldn't imagine it being that bad. And then the news comes out and it's that bad and. Caribou and Yachty's situation is just in that same situation, same situation.
Speaker 2:Same situation.
Speaker 1:I may have paraphrased a lot of that stuff. Please do not go on the internet talking about?
Speaker 2:oh, dj said this.
Speaker 1:Look it up for yourself because there's a lot of stuff that, like I said, I paraphrased yeah.
Speaker 2:No, and I think the hardest thing after the fact is that I regret myself for letting it slide. Yeah, that's for sure. Yeah. I regret myself for letting it slide and letting it just be and playing it out. But again, like just, I chose to stick with my own piece of my own mindset, right and right and um. And the reason why I'm saying is just because, if well, if you would have fed into it.
Speaker 1:You know it would have been no good if, if you would have fed into you know him smearing your name or or him trying to play victim or any of that other situation like it just would not have allowed you to pursue what you were doing authentically.
Speaker 2:You know what I'm saying um, and I don't think he ever realized how hard it was for me to bounce yeah, back yeah, and I don't think no one really realized that and I've never I don't think I've ever talked about it, and if I do talk about it again, like this is just from my experience. So whatever for you guys like, just listen, just from my experience, right. Um, he, he didn't realize how hard the bounce back was for me, right because he didn't have to deal with everything else in the background.
Speaker 2:Right, he didn't have to deal with the negativity of like, hey, but why did you do this? Or right, hey, this is what they're saying about you. Right, this is what they're saying about broke boys. He didn't see the, the hardship of how am I supposed to do it? Yeah, how can I come back from this? Right, and it just tarnished our broke boy name. It tarnished everything. It discredited everything we stood for. Absolutely yeah.
Speaker 2:And it's just like okay, what can I do? How can I bounce back from this? Now it's just me, by myself.
Speaker 2:Now it's just he didn't understand the difficulties that I had to go through, the loss of time, the loss of money, the loss of everything that I invested in. And even the this song said it best by Polo G is they don't understand how hard it was for you to detach from them and they still went and tossed dirt on your name to talk shit about you. Yeah that's crazy. And it's just like, bro, like I bit my tongue so much. Yeah, I allowed I know, you did I know.
Speaker 2:So it's just like okay, like when is it, when is it gonna be my turn to switch right? And I get, I just kept taking l's back and back to back, witnessed it. I was like fuck, I'm not doing anything. My numbers weren't good and I was just like. I felt like my numbers weren't good. Right, but when I? Logged into it. You guys saw that everything was just like no, everything's fine.
Speaker 1:Everything's still the same, yeah.
Speaker 2:But the lack of creativity on my end, the lack of finding things to bounce back from. Right.
Speaker 2:All the hard parts and, like I had a, I had to take a lot of breaks and trying to figure out how I can make content. It took me a while for me to actually fucking figure it out right and it's a blessing and a curse. It's a blessing that that everything played out the way it did and I think it played out the necessary route that it had to Right exactly. Yeah, it's a curse just because you have them and you talk so highly of them, just for them to fucking backhand you.
Speaker 1:Right. Well, some people, I feel like, don't appreciate the opportunity that they're given. It's not just a playing field. This isn't just a day to go to the park and then that's that. You know. The next day you're going back to whatever you're doing. Yeah, this is a true dedication. This is something that, like, you have to sit down and be like okay, is this something I truly want to do? Like this is going to take a lot of commitment, a lot of time. That's the reason why I felt like I haven't started the YouTube channel, like I was talking about. I know it's not a commitment. I've been out there where I've tried to make things work and I just had to drop it and let it go because I'm like it's not working, and then having to deal with that embarrassment after the fact of being like, bro, these people see me try and it didn't work out. And I got people asking me hey, whatever happened.
Speaker 2:Yeah, it didn't work out and I got people asking me hey, whatever happened? Yeah, and that's the embarrassing part, yeah, you deal, and it was hard for me to deal with. Yeah, and it's hard because I lied, I kept lying about it. Yeah. Because, again, like I I I've said it before I cared so much about this motherfucker's image. Yeah.
Speaker 2:I didn't care about my own Exactly, and it it's just so heartbreaking how much I had to fucking get set back from and then to bounce back and figure it out on my own Right. And then now you figure it out on your own, now you're successful, now you're doing it, and all of a sudden, no, no, no, you're talking shit about me, yeah, and you're saying X, y and Z, and I'm hearing it through all these other people that are telling me.
Speaker 1:You know what I think it is, though. It's almost like the game of karma, right? Yeah, so somebody does you dirty, somebody, let's say. Let's say, somebody steals your wheels in your car. You've been working your ass off, you've been doing this, you've been building your car. Somebody steals the fucking wheels in your car and you're like why is this happening to me, bro? Like I've been doing everything I'm supposed to be, I've been working my ass off, I've been doing this and somebody just hating fuck your wheels, somebody just somebody like oh, I like those.
Speaker 1:Y'all go ahead and take this. Fuck how you feel, fuck how hard you worked for it. You know deep down inside that person has something bad coming to them. Yeah, so you, it's up to you to be mad at them. Try and track them down. Oh, let's look at the ring camera. Let's see who did it. Let's try and see where they stay, at who this person is. Yeah.
Speaker 1:Or you can be like you know what it is, what it is. I got to move smarter next time. Maybe I got to upgrade my security a little bit more. Whatever the case may be, get my wheels back on and deep down inside. Even though it hurts you, you have to remember that there's always going to be the bad karma on there and even though they may have done you dirty at that moment in time, later on down the road they gonna get they're gonna get theirs tenfold oh, absolutely, and that's all you have to remember.
Speaker 1:It's not easy. Obviously. I'm not saying that this whole situation is easy to forgive, because I mean, I remember what you were doing. I remember the phone calls getting on the phone for an hour long talking about bro. What do I do from this point on, like, should I, should I hop on his podcast and you know what I'm saying? Or do I just be calm and cordial about it?
Speaker 1:and we, you know me and him, me and you both yeah me and you both I think it was the episode not even a month after the situation happened and we're holding tongue trying to make sure we don't it was.
Speaker 2:It was hard because we were like, fuck, we sat out. We sat outside for almost an hour. Yeah, just letting loose. Yeah, just talking, talking our shit. Yeah, just so that way we could get on and be like, nah, we're not gonna do that we're not gonna feed into that right um, and I you know what. I'm so grateful that we never fed into it. I'm so grateful again. Everything plays out for a reason exactly and again it's just like fuck it's.
Speaker 2:I don't. No one ever realizes from anybody. No one realized how hard I had to deal with it and how hard I had to bounce back from it right and how difficult it was.
Speaker 2:But now to where I'm at now right it's, I'm satisfied, I'm happy, I'm I'm finally living with the way I wanted to live. Yeah, one thing that I do regret is starting it with somebody who didn't have the same vision, and that's the sad. That's the sad thing. Yeah, because reality dj is is the reality is. I honestly don't think that he had the same ambition or dream that we had thought Right, that's what we stood for, that's what it seems like, and it just seemed like he was only doing it just because he saw that I was doing it and not like following me like a trend, but following it because he was like well, if you find it cool, I guess I'll guess I'll find it cool as well, but you know he's always kind of been like that yeah and and then, if you notice it, and and I'm the kind of person like I'll take a step back, if I'm in a group of people, I'll take a step back and, like, I really analyze I I am, and I hate to even admit that I overanalyze a lot of things, but I've always noticed that there's certain people in your groups.
Speaker 1:There's the followers and there's the leaders, there's the innovative ones and then there's the ones that just go with it. And again, I'm not trying to talk bad about nobody. I'm not up here trying to talk about all your fault, like no yeah this is just what the reality of it is.
Speaker 1:I've seen situations where homeboy will just strictly agree with everything you may say and I'm like, okay, well, bro, form your own opinion. Like, speak on it. Like, even if it's in a podcast episode, don't just let Martin carry the whole thing, speak on it. Do something that. Say something that you feel like is adding on to the conversation. You know what I'm saying. Don't just completely agree with what this man is saying. Like, form your own opinion, not to say to argue with him, but you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2:Just say your own piece, like say it with your chest, with no fear and even all the other guys said the same thing. Yeah. Because all the other guys saw it too. And again, I don't know why I kept defending it or why I kept believing, like you know, and maybe it was just because that instinct that I had of all my friends Right, even you Like if for somebody you know to try to say something about your car page or anything like that. I'll defend their car page. Right.
Speaker 2:You know, that's just who I am Right. But, again like. I don't know. Like I noticed, noticed the signs, but I didn't pay attention to him right and it was, and I should have known. I should have known from from the moment that I told him take care of the youtube. You're in charge of this you're in charge of this from the moment that I tried to leave him in charge of certain things and nothing was getting done right. I shouldn't.
Speaker 2:I should have saw it yeah but I was just so blinded and just I don't know. To this day I really don't know, other than the fact is that I gave him so many opportunities and I was always rooting for his side, and the moment that it didn't go his way, or the moment that he whatever it was it just blew up on my face. How was it going to blow up on mine? Damn.
Speaker 1:Damn. I mean honestly, bro. I try and I think positive about the situation, but there's just no way for me to really think about it.
Speaker 2:I think the only positive way that I see it is that and this is a lesson for everybody that I see it is that um, this is a lesson for everybody is that the.
Speaker 1:You have to choose your business partners very, very selectively.
Speaker 2:Not only that, but you have to know that if there's people that are really rooted for you, you're really going to be there for you yeah. You're going to notice it right off the bat. You'll feel it. Yeah, don't ignore the signs. Don't, don't, don't, feel it. Yeah, don't ignore the signs. Don't allow that. That Fuck Don't allow that, don't give that benefit of the doubt.
Speaker 1:Don't give any of that, don't allow any of that energy in. I can't say the whole word. Why am I stuttering? Don't allow that energy in Anything that's not 100% energy. When you're trying to start something new and you've got that one person. Oh that's pretty cool, bro. I think that's good for you, and it just seems like it's just a little off on energy, don't you know what I mean? Just take it as a grain of salt, yeah, because that's all it's ever going to be.
Speaker 1:You can't just allow somebody else's you know 40, 40 to try and help you out on your 100, because at the end of the day, you're just going to keep dragging them along and they're not going to be able to help support you whenever you need it the most. And I've dealt with that a lot. Even when I do with my social media pages and stuff like that. I've had people tell me oh, bro, you should do this, you should do that, you should do this, and I'm like OK, but what do you do as your content In this entire year? And he's not even fully content in what he does. I'm not going to take what you have to say into consideration.
Speaker 2:That much I'll consider it, whatever anybody else is here, yeah, I take constructive criticism all the time. I had that issue too, and it wasn't with the same person, it was with someone else. Yeah. And again it was just like okay, I appreciate the information you're giving me, I appreciate the feedback that you're giving me, right, and the criticism because he was. He was heavily criticizing, right, um, but what are your numbers? What are you showing?
Speaker 2:oh, you like nowhere near the same way and it's just like I'm not trying to speak, like I know everything right but what makes you qualified to tell me?
Speaker 2:if you're not? You know you can't preach about the same thing exactly if your numbers ain't showing. If you're not at that level, why should I listen to you exactly? And uh, again, it's not saying that I'm top dog or I know everything at all right, but again, like, I'll take your feedback, I'll take the, I'll take the criticism. Hey, thank you for the feedback, thank you for all that. I'm gonna go back to the drawing board and figure yeah, but don't be preaching on something that you don't know.
Speaker 1:And not only that, but you're not going to find inspiration by somebody who's again not trying to speak like people are under us.
Speaker 2:Some people are going to come after our necks, bro. Yeah, I know, bro, I know.
Speaker 1:It's hard to work this.
Speaker 1:That's what I meant to say. It's hard because, like, let's put it, for instance, my biggest inspiration when it comes to car content was always at Lemonade. When I was in high school, I was watching these dudes Back when it was just Randy and the other homie and it was two of them in an apartment complex with a Honda S2000. Okay and they were pushing clothing brand content, were starting up their youtube. You know what I'm saying. I mean it wasn't as big as it is now. They used to film them hanging out with their homies, film the process of what it's like. Um, I wouldn't say drop shipping, but pretty much running the merch, dropping it off, doing what they got to do. He was starting off as a small fry, bro. And now look at Eliminate. Eliminate is one of the most known California car groups out there. I mean I really don't know anybody else who's doing it like them out here in California, based out of San Jose. I mean, bro, popped out with a Nissan Skyline on some Tokyo Drift shit.
Speaker 1:Had everybody like no way, he really did that they had what they called a lemonade house where all the homies stayed with them. They made content on the daily and it's something that me and, like I said, julian, we were looking at. Like you know what, what if we just had a content? House. You see, A&P does it right, people want that.
Speaker 2:Faze Clan did it too, faze Clan yeah.
Speaker 1:It's definitely a dream of ours to do something like that.
Speaker 2:I think even during COVID the TikTokers all the TikTokers had it Absolutely. And that idea has never been new.
Speaker 1:It's always been the same, but you're not going to look at somebody who's starting below you for that inspiration. You're aiming for a top dog.
Speaker 2:Exactly so.
Speaker 1:I'm not going to. If Randy was to hit me up and be like bro, not going to lie, like I see what you're doing and I just wouldn't do it If he told me that I'd be like damn, I must be doing something wrong bro, like.
Speaker 1:This must not be it. I'm not going to let it discourage me completely, because he might not always be right either, but he might not always be right either, but I'd rather take his advice over somebody who's like yeah, I'll take this as an example and again, I'm not bashing nobody, please.
Speaker 2:I'm not taking this as I'm talking shit. But there was an idea that um that had showed them on tiktok, yeah, and it was the group right, and I said and I said, look look at this idea. And the idea was for comedy, it was a comedy sketch, so it was like, uh, when, when the group doesn't match the song, and it's like them being gangster and it's the song.
Speaker 2:It's like a katie perry song you know something funny yeah, and again, like it was just to make it funny, right, and the dude's response was like I don't, I'm not like that, my page is mysterious, my page is dark I don't do nothing funny. I was like okay, like, yeah, my bad bro, I won't pitch that idea again, but I was just like throwing different things, just because I was like seeing how musicians are, seeing how different artists come out with different ideas, like yeah just throwing random ones yeah to to grasp to grab some, some new attention to people and you know what I will say.
Speaker 1:That's also the blessing in it. All, too, is the fact that that was like a foreshadowing of it. All. Right, you want your page to be mysterious and nonchalant, or whatever the case may be, but you got to drop the ego. At the end of the day, your ego will be your biggest enemy in any kind of content creation. I've had so many people that I've known that get so big headed over their image.
Speaker 2:Oh, I know, yeah, right, I know Homeboy also had a big head, yeah.
Speaker 1:And you know they start making content. And they haven't even made it. I mean, they barely dipped their pinky toe in the water. They ain't even felt the temperature yet.
Speaker 2:And don't get me wrong.
Speaker 1:I understand that mindset of like yeah, I am top Number one, I get me wrong. I understand that mindset of like yeah, I'm him, I got this, I got that, I'm him, Bro. I've been humbled so many times I can't even act like that.
Speaker 1:no more, I would have to force myself and even then I still feel disgusted. But I think that's really what it is. Is the fact that people aren't as humble as they should be, or who am I to judge? But I just believe if you want to be successful in anything, you have to be humble, you have to remember to be level-headed. You have to remember don't be so full of yourself, unless you're Mr Beast and you really got it like that, then something else. Yeah, exactly, exactly.
Speaker 2:No, I was like that. I think I had that conversation with him and I told him I was like I get it, bro. Like you know, know, some people come up to us and they say, because at the time people were coming up to us right and people were like, hey, you're, you're broke boys I was like yeah, yeah, I was like nice to meet you, man.
Speaker 2:Oh, I like your podcast senior it's just like okay, cool like, I like that, yeah, like when people gave me, I kept it the same, like I'm still the same, I ain't switch up, ain't no difference? Yeah and um, he just got airhead instantly. Yeah, because then, uh, the time and you remember too, because we were, I'm not going to lie we were also pumping the air in his head yeah, yeah, Because we were like damn dude, these girls hitting you up too.
Speaker 1:Yep, yep, yep, and it's just like he changed his swag up. Hey, bro, had it on, though, yeah.
Speaker 2:He had that shit on, though I'll give it to him. The airhead just kind of fucked it up.
Speaker 1:When you haven't had something like that before, bro, you just don't know how to appreciate it that much more. Yeah, that's really just what it is, but I mean, hey to each its own. Again, we are no one to talk shit. We are literally just talking about our own personal experience, that we've dealt with with people in the past and the people who have let us down. I mean, it didn't have to go the way it needed to, but unfortunately this is the circumstance and we bounce right back every single time?
Speaker 2:Yeah, and I don't think that they ever realized how hard it was for either one of us Like even with oh man. Don't even get me started with him, but even with him I do wish it. Wouldn't it end up that way, bro, because he was. So when I look back at it, bro and I even look back at the memories that we had that we all has a group. It was just fun times that we all had with one another, and that's another thing too, that that ego killed him and dude, I don't even want to get into this
Speaker 1:I'm going to get emotional over this because it's so irritating because people don't have to move the way that they do. Yeah, like I remember sitting on the couch in the living room trying to help him fight with his I won't say addiction, but His problems, his problems. You know what I'm saying. Like real friends will be there for you when you're in your deepest, darkest moments and they can see right through you. And we were trying to not like, not like, tell him up from hey, bro, you need to cut this out. Like we're not those type of people. And we weren't trying to preach it either. We were just we were bringing a topic up and like and like a. How do you like? A foreshadowing moment, I guess you could say, like we were hinting at it, but only to the point to where he would pick up on it and notice it, while without saying it like out loud. Yeah.
Speaker 1:And we knew he connected on it. We felt it but unfortunately it was just like people's egos get too big and they they just make themselves the enemy. You know you can't progress if you have a big ego. You cannot move forward and and have a good, healthy friend group that's gonna help you progress in life if you have an ego that's so destructive and so full of yourself, it won't work and the other thing was is that for for either either one of them was.
Speaker 2:the simple fact is that, from what I saw, is that you can talk about the grind, but the grind is going to be different, like they would talk about, and I'm going to use my situation and similar to theirs.
Speaker 2:I would get desperate because I need to figure out something for my mom, I need to figure out something for my family and get them out of the situation that they're in right and I'm desperate in that aspect, right, and I've always used that as as fuel, right, like, hey, I'm gonna wake up in the morning and I'm gonna fucking execute, I'm gonna fucking figure it out, right? Um, because I need to get my mom out, I need to get my mom a house, right, and, and don't get me wrong, cat's always been my priority right. She's always gonna be my priority right. But my family comes first and I'm gonna do everything I can for them because, again, they don't have the opportunities that other other fortunate families have, right. So that falls down into me. Because my siblings aren't gonna step up to the plate, right, I gotta do that. And and when they saw that, they would say the same thing, but it never showed.
Speaker 2:But it never showed, and I think it was to a point where I told both of them at one point. I told them that was just like what's your goal at all? What's your goal at this chain? Are you going to move up? Are you going to stay there? You should really figure out a way to incorporate your family into a better system, right, if that's what you want. Right? Morals and mentalities just weren't aligned and I think I think that our level of maturity, our level of mindset just didn't align anymore. Right and everything. And and don't get me wrong, I always like to have fun, I always like to go and enjoy my time.
Speaker 1:Right.
Speaker 2:But not all the time. Yeah, there's a certain limit, yeah, and like if I could work a Saturday or a Sunday. I best believe I'm going to do that for money.
Speaker 1:I'm always going to chase my bag.
Speaker 2:Right, exactly, and for them it was something different. It was always like no, let's party, let's drink, let's smoke, let's get every single weekend. Yeah, and it's, it's cool, I'll be your guys, dd, because I was never gonna risk anything like that, right. But again, like it got just so tiring to the point where you don't mix well with that, no more like hey bro, at what point are you gonna get tired of it?
Speaker 1:right and if you really had that dream that you said you wanted, you wouldn't be doing this shit. Yeah. That's very real. You know, I remember those days and I think you straight up asked I think you asked one of them you were like okay, is that really your goal? Though, like is that your real dream? And it's hinting like bro, we can see the front right through you. We know that's not what your goal is. You're just saying it because you think what I said sounds good.
Speaker 1:You know, what I'm saying and that's when I noticed the genuine part of them, the authenticity in them just wasn't there, and it's sad enough to say. But that's just how it is when you can read it right through them and you start picking up on the signs of okay, maybe everything this man says isn't what we deem it to be.
Speaker 2:Maybe he's not as authentic as we thought he would be. I just Because I get even with the other guy he said it at Disneyland that he was so desperate that he needed to say this whole speech Right, felt for him. Hey, man, get your shit together Right. If you really want to help out your family, get your fucking shit together. It's cool don't get me wrong to do shit on the side, to do this on this side, but what's your goal? What purpose? What are you doing? What are you actively doing right now that's going to set them up.
Speaker 1:Exactly what can you do right now that's going to help that situation. Exactly what can you do right now that's going to help that situation. Yeah, and some people just don't sit down with themselves enough to actually talk it out or to actually make those steps.
Speaker 2:Right. Some people just lie to themselves like, yeah, I have done it, or yeah, I had that conversation with myself and it's just like, but if you really did, you would be operating in a whole different environment.
Speaker 1:Dreams don't work unless you do. Yeah, you know. What's really crazy is I've been guilty of that too. I'm not going to tell somebody like, oh, I accomplished all the goals that I have. Sorry for the stuttering, I'm sorry, no you're good, bro.
Speaker 2:It happens to me all the time, bro, you're good, or?
Speaker 1:it appears to the audience. You know I'll be the first person to admit. Like I know I've set myself up for goals and was like damn, I really gotta do this. Like you know, we've all been there that 2 am thought like I gotta get myself together.
Speaker 1:You start hitting some fucking push-ups and shit, like, oh, I'm gonna change and then you know it falls off at the end of the day because you weren't committed enough, because you that goal wasn't feasible enough for you.
Speaker 1:You didn't take the appropriate steps to do it, and i'll'll admit that I've had that. That's just how life is. Nobody's perfect and you're not going to get the goal down-packed every single time. That's just how it is. You're going to lose sometimes, but you cannot sit down with yourself and tell the lies to the people that are closest to you, that care for you, and tell them yeah, I want to do this because I, you know, I got to do this for my family. Yada, yada, yada, because we're in your corner rooting for you. And the more you keep telling us false promises that you want for yourself, for your family, and you're not applying yourself, it's just going to either make us uncomfortable and stop believing what you're saying is true, or we're're just gonna keep applying that pressure until you want to give up. Yeah, until you say you know what guys like I'm done yeah like easy they.
Speaker 1:They wheeze them their way out of their group. You know what I'm saying?
Speaker 2:and, and you can. You can want the what's best for yeah, but you can't make them get it. You can't make them. Yeah, exactly yeah, because that's the hardest thing. And don't get me wrong like I'm not perfect. I'm far from it. Yeah, but I learned from my fucking mistakes and I figured it out. I've took so many L's and you're still going to take the L's? Yeah, life is going to fucking give you L's back to back Tomorrow. I ain't promised for anybody, bro.
Speaker 1:Tomorrow, I can suffer and I get it. This is getting a little dark and it's getting a little. I think about it all the time too, I know.
Speaker 2:But tomorrow I can lose. I can lose my loved one, yeah, anybody. Yeah, I can lose them, yeah, and then, what did I accomplish? Right, all the stuff that I wanted to do, all the stuff that I wanted to to accomplish for them. Right, and they're not here, no more.
Speaker 1:Right I fail and live in that life of regret, bro, it regret will stick with you for life, bro. I'm telling you right now because I already know the feeling. It's not man. Regret is one feeling that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Okay, maybe I would, but like it's just something that you don't want to deal with If you can avoid it by all means make that change today.
Speaker 1:Like if you can really do something that you don't want to deal with, if you can avoid it, by all means make that change today. Like if you can really do something that you know, like maybe, maybe I should get up and do something to pay my parents back my parents back for what they did for me you know what I'm saying maybe I should.
Speaker 1:Maybe that person, maybe that ex, deserves like um closure. You know what I'm saying. Maybe the way I did them was a little foul, maybe the person that I went off on yesterday because I was in a bad mood maybe I should apologize to them. Yeah, do it, because, bro, next thing you know, you look on ABC 30 Action News or you just hear through the grapevine bro, did you hear so-and-so passed away? And you're like no you're lying bro.
Speaker 1:I was just talking to in the back of your head. You knew how you did them that day. You knew you know what I'm saying. You could have did something to make that change and, as corny as it sounds, I know y'all probably done heard this a hundred thousand times. If you can change something today, please do it, because living a lifelong life of regret is one of the hardest things to do. Bro. I'm telling you right now I live it right now.
Speaker 2:So that's the only reason why I'm saying it, bro, it's. It's tough, bro, yeah, it's tough, it is, it is, it's hard, it's hard to deal with and I don't I don't wish that on anybody. And again, like, not everybody has to have the same mindset as I do, like that's for sure. Everybody has their own different motives, their own different, uh, goals and and ambitions. Mine is just stronger than than others and I'm always going to be pushing forward, no matter what.
Speaker 2:Even when I had the, when I talked about this, the setback, like I didn't know what I was going to do, like I didn't know what I was going to do with the platform let's let's be, let's be honest, right, I was so confused, I was so hurt, I was, so it took me out. Right, I had to take a whole week break to figure something out right. And even then, like, all right, what can I do? How can I be better? How can I do this? Right?
Speaker 2:And you spiral into that moment of like feeling lost. Feeling lost, right, and it's just like OK, why am I not doing good, why am I not? But then you think about it and you're just like hold on, you check and you look and everything is fine, but you in your head, it's not right. So you just got to remember to yourself to not be so harsh on yourself and to to love yourself. Most importantly, right and everybody else is who's either done you wrong, who's fucked you over, whatever it may be, just know that, hey, one day either karma's gonna get it or you're just gonna have to learn to move, move past it and find your own peace you know, on onto that topic.
Speaker 1:I kind of wanted to stand on that too, because, um, I was on tiktok and I was watching this tiktok. This lady was talking about, um, pretty much except or waiting for closure yeah, and she said closure doesn't exist. When she said that, I was like wait a minute hold on. That does it not exist because you didn't accept the apology the person was giving you. Yeah.
Speaker 1:Like she went into this entire rant. She's just like if you're waiting for your ex or that one person to come back into your life and be like you know what I was wrong, I'm sorry. Or to come back and be like oh, I did you dirty, I shouldn't have done that. Like you, it's not going to happen. And when she said that I was like well, when you come at it like that, you're never going to reach closure. Because closure is two things. Right. Closure is the person who did you wrong or you who did somebody wrong Going back to that person and accepting you know what.
Speaker 1:I fucked up, I could have gone a different way about certain things and apologizing. The second side of closure is the person who was the victim in the situation being open enough to be able to at least accept the apology, or you don't even have to accept it. You can be like you know what I understand. You're being genuine about it. I don't agree with it. I don't accept apology, but I appreciate you even like coming back and even being real to even do that.
Speaker 1:You know what I'm saying you don't have to accept what they did. You don't have to forgive them, yeah, but understand that closure is real. You know what I'm saying. If there's somebody that, like you, feel like deserves closure, but give it to them. It's gonna make you feel that much better, like I, I promise you. I've sat down with myself so many times and just wish somebody would have been like you know what, bro, I did this man so dirty like I should have.
Speaker 1:Just maybe I should just apologize to him and I'm not gonna sit here and wait for somebody's apology. That's just the kind of person that I am. But if you're waiting for one, you're not gonna get one. If you're waiting for one, I would just say accept it and open arms if it does come to you, because if you decide to decline it, then you'll never believe that closure is a real thing, because that's on you, it's a two, it's a two-way road. You got to accept the apology and they've got to come to you with it.
Speaker 2:Yeah, that's just me no, and I get you and for me is um, you have to be your own closure, yeah that too, that too yeah that's, that's how I see it. Just because, uh, with everybody, not even just this one person, but with everybody, this has done me wrong.
Speaker 2:Right, I've sat here and I've and I've analyzed every single one, I've gone through the process before right before I used to deal with it with anger, and I used to deal with it with ruthless aggression, right, you know. And then, uh, instead I I just started telling myself, like Before I used to deal with it with anger and I used to deal with it with Ruthless aggression, right, you know. And Instead I I just started Telling myself, like what's the point? Right, why am I getting angry? Why am I getting upset? There's no point in that. Yeah.
Speaker 2:Like at that point, at the end of the day, they fucked me over they. It is what. It is Right. I Closed that chapter and I move on with my life because you got to go on to the next. Yeah, like it hurt, but what are you going to do about it? And betrayal's a bitch. Yeah. Betrayal's always going to happen? Yeah, am I cautious about it? Yeah, I always look over my shoulder and watch out because of how many times I've been betrayed.
Speaker 1:It's like getting cheated on by your first love and wondering why she did you like that. You're going to sit around and wait for her to explain why she cheated on you? No, you're going to move forward, you're going to keep it pushing. You're going to deal with the pain, deal with the heart. However, you can cope with it. You just keep pushing and understand that the world is just like that.
Speaker 2:People are just going to do you dirty like that.
Speaker 1:Yeah, explanation or not, you know.
Speaker 2:Mm-hmm. And you're never going to get the explanation you deserve. You're never going to get the apology you deserve, Mm-hmm. So I look at it as throughout all the situations make that very fucking clear. I closed every single one of them. I don't sit here and I'll reminisce and then think about all that bullshit.
Speaker 2:It gets me irritated, it gets me annoyed, but that's because you bring it up. But the situation itself. I have moved on. I got peace with myself. Does that mean I'm going to be okay seeing you? Probably not. You're lucky. I don't give you an ass whoop in front of everybody and it takes a lot out of me for me to be like you know what.
Speaker 1:Let me just turn the fuck around before you, and that's especially after time and time and time of expecting something back Some form of respect after you've done so much for them. And then the betrayal hits, and then you're just sitting there like, oh, the moment I catch you, slipping boy is back.
Speaker 2:Don't get me wrong In my head it's like that Like let me catch you slipping one time. It'd be like that, bro. It'd be like that.
Speaker 1:But at the end of the day, is the crash out justifiable, is it worth it, is it Again?
Speaker 2:I think about this quote that I remember. Somebody told me yeah, and it's don't let five seconds of your life don't let five seconds of your life that's going to ruin your life cost you another 15 years, yeah. Because, it's not worth it bitches nowadays. Yes, bro yeah, yeah and no one's gonna take the ass whipping, unless you're gonna take the ass whipping from the cops exactly, and uh, I'm not gonna lie.
Speaker 1:There's certain times where it is justifiable, but it's not worth it. 90 times 90 of the time it's not worth it.
Speaker 2:And I, I tell myself because don't get me wrong sometimes I'm in that head and I'm just like yeah just do it just that one time.
Speaker 1:I mean little demon in the cage in your head is just telling you hey, remember, when A little fucking anger, that little anger, emotions in the cage, just a little simmer.
Speaker 2:A little simmer, let me get a little hot.
Speaker 1:Oh, man, I mean, at the end of the day, man, all I can say is I'm proud of you because I know you've come a long way. I feel like, out of anybody's story that I've heard, you know their life story that I've heard I feel like I'm more sympathetic towards yours, only because of the fact that it is so hard to come from a background like you have and then to completely do a whole 180 and and try and be a better version of yourself. There's a lot of people who wish they could do that. Yeah, you know what I mean. People who were in your shoes that just fathom of it and just can't, because they can't conquer that demon inside them. They can't conquer that, that anger. You know what I'm saying and and it's a, it's a lot, but, like I said, I'm proud of you, bro, because if it was me personally, I'm sorry, I probably would have been Dead or locked up.
Speaker 2:I appreciate that, bro, and it's just it's. I've suffered through A lot mentally and I've said that Openly Throughout the podcast. I've suffered From my own suicidal Thoughts before as well and I'm opening up To everybody Just because, like that's, that's some deep shit. And.
Speaker 2:I've always had that dark that's some deep shit and I've always had that dark mentality, that dark cloud in my head. That bitch never left, never left. Let me be honest with you. It doesn't matter, I don't know why, but it doesn't matter how happy or how satisfied you get these small moments. I can go out of town and I'm happy with my girl, and I can go out of town and be happy and be joyful, but I'm not really happy or satisfied within myself Like that void isn't filled, yeah, yeah, and it's just like I don't know.
Speaker 2:I don't on a deeper level. I really don't know if it's just because I haven't accomplished what I need to accomplish for my mom, for my dad or for my siblings. I don't know if it's just because I have so much built-in trauma in me that I just I try, I've tried to suppress it Again. You've known me for years, so we've opened up about a lot of this deep shit before and every single one of my guy friends they know that I've opened up about a lot of this deep shit before and every, every single one of my guy friends they know that I've opened up about it and they can all say the same thing is that I've always suffered with this Right. It's never changed. It's always been the same dark cloud and it's always been the same way. Right.
Speaker 2:So I will never understand if it's just because of the lack of, of not being able to accomplish certain things or what it is, but truly, truly, I've always said this is that I'll never be happy in my life, I'll never be satisfied or happy just because of how dark I have it in my head.
Speaker 1:You know, I've always said to myself because I can relate to that in a different manner but I've always said to myself I feel like everybody has a form of depression, right, Everybody has a form of suicidal tendencies, and it may not be as strong as an ex-person, you might not even think about suicide, but best believe, I thought of you looking over that cliff and being like jump, Just hearing that word and you just taking a step back and be like nah, let me take a step back. That's a suicidal tendency. You know what I'm saying, no matter what you think it is, that's just factual. Yeah.
Speaker 1:I just feel like maybe in your shoes, you know, you've dealt with so much stuff that that cloud doesn't go away because you have so much pent-up stress. You have things that you want to accomplish and that's a common thing with people who are big dreamers, you know. You know, even me, growing up, I always thought I was going to be like I was instilled into my head, family members, friend, friends telling me bro, like you're gonna be someone, you grow up, bro, you're smart as fuck, like you you're innovative, like you're just so creative, like you're gonna be something big. And like I look at myself now compared to what I could have become when I first graduated and I mean, yeah, I could have been something huge, I could have been something great. I see the opportunities I could have.
Speaker 1:Took that I let pass me by, yeah I'm not gonna sit here and cry about it and be like, oh, I should have did this, I should like not, but I still could. I'm not going to regret it. But as a big dreamer, you will never really feel satisfied until you feel like you've accomplished that one big goal. You really wanted to. And even for me I think about it all the time, I stress out about the situation with my mom and we've think about it all the time. I stress out about the situation with my mom and we've talked about that all the time I wanted to start my own towing company so that I can put food on the table for my family. Because we've struggled. We've struggled with employment and I don't know if that's just a systematic thing. I'm not going to get into no racism or nothing like that, nothing controversial.
Speaker 1:But you know, I wanted to be the one in my family to be the first generation business owner to be like okay, well, here's a towing company. I run the business, my mom's a dispatcher, my brother's a tow truck driver, my uncle's a tow truck driver, we got somebody in customer service, we got somebody doing, you know, finances yeah, and it's all family oriented.
Speaker 1:So that way, when I have kids, they have a job to look forward to. My little cousins, they got a job to look forward to, my little cousins, they got a job to look forward to. And I'm serving the community with something greater. I'm doing something that I can help benefit other people with, whether it's the car homies who, hey, bro, I need a tow, I just blew a fucking tire, my rim just de-beated, or I got this situation we're low car family. I got you, bro, you know what I'm saying Just to help the community out. Yeah, yeah, I couldn't accomplish that goal.
Speaker 1:I looked at how and I'm not saying it's impossible, but I've looked at how feasible it is how possible is it for somebody my age to go and start a towing company? A towing company is very easy to start. It's very low. It's very low like. You don't need hella finances to get into that business off the rip. Yeah, if you got somebody who is a financial investor, who invests in what you want to do to handle, handle a total company, I guarantee you'll be successful.
Speaker 1:But unfortunately, due to the circumstances, I wasn't able to do it at this moment. Um, and so that crushed my dreams a lot. I've sat back and was just like honestly, bro, I don't think I have enough time to be able to retire my mom like I thought I would like. Damn, maybe I won't be the one to give my mom everything, but, bro, you gotta keep going. Yeah, no matter what I that.
Speaker 1:That thought is in my head every day when I'm down in my rut, lost the job, whatever the case, maybe case, maybe the company went under I'm sitting in my room like, damn, what the fuck am I going to do, bro? It's just sending me back more years, more time. How am I going to catch up? You have to remember, bro, you got to keep pushing that dream. A dream is only a dream until you make it reality. Exactly so you can keep dreaming and then let the time pass on until it's damn near impossible to make it come true, and then for the rest of your life it's done, or you can try and find something else that you'd be satisfactory with. That's more reasonable, because you can always change a dream, yeah, but once that dream has passed, you might just regret it deep enough to where you think that you could have done it and you just didn't. It's really just about and this is a crazy word, this is something crazy to say but it's really just about how you manipulate yourself.
Speaker 2:Yeah, that's really what it is, yeah, yeah, because you almost have to believe it in your own head that it's gonna happen exactly and that's just the way that you have to speak it into existence, like um I've always said. Broke boys is the number one podcast in Fresno. It was at one point when I was saying it, we were number five Exactly.
Speaker 2:Not gonna lie to you. Yeah, but I spoke it To existence To be number one, and that's just how you gotta do it. You have to just tell yourself no, I'm gonna be number one, I'm gonna be on top one day. I'm going to, I'm going to, I'm going to, I'm going to, I'm going to, and eventually it's going to become a reality.
Speaker 2:Same thing with motivation you have to find your motivators, you have to find your why. For example, for me, my why, my family, my girl, always, always has been Because I'm doing everything I can for my mom, for my dad, for my siblings. I'm doing everything I can to have a better life for Kat Because, at the end of the day and this is another thing, this is another challenge that I have to hurdle over but I'm living a life with her, but I'm also trying to figure out a life for my parents, so I have to juggle two lives in one.
Speaker 1:And that's not easy, bro, because, trust me, I did it and I folded, bro, man, I folded, bro, I told man I folded so bad I took the relationship out of the equation because I couldn't do it. I just and I'll admit, I made that mistake, Like it wasn't as deep as I thought it was, but there are still other factors that are holding me back that I needed to cut that relationship off.
Speaker 2:But that's real, bro, that is absolutely real and that's I think that's real bro, that is absolutely real and that's I think, that's why I haven't I haven't pulled the trigger on getting married, because I'll be honest for everybody that's listening, for you too, my biggest fear is to be a failure, and I'm afraid to fail my marriage and be the same example as everybody else. I don't want to be that statistic.
Speaker 1:That's real bro.
Speaker 2:Wow.
Speaker 1:That's a deep one. Yeah.
Speaker 2:That's what I'm saying. Like it's, I don't want to fuck it up, right? I'm an afraid and I come from a family of fuck ups. You know me personally for years, so I have struggled, I've took a lot of losses and I've bounced back from everything.
Speaker 1:I just think it's insane, bro, cause, like we share a lot of things in common when it comes to like being very goal oriented, being very goal-oriented, being very, um, goal-driven you know what I'm saying but like seeing and being around other people that are very like surface level, like does it ever like piss you off sometimes?
Speaker 1:yeah, like, yeah, I know exactly what you mean yeah, like you're just like bro, why am I here? Yeah, it did that, that shit. Sometimes like I'm glad that we've evolved and we've become the people that we have now, because I can't sit in a room of surface level people and be satisfied with it, but I will go the fuck home you know what I'm saying?
Speaker 2:I'll start. I started like in my head it starts playing the Spongebob song. I'm just like, yeah, I don't, I don't belong here oh my god, I legitimately just.
Speaker 1:It's crazy to think about how we have evolved as people, right? How, when we were younger, the smallest things used to just tick us off, bro, and we just grew so patient but also built a boundary up so like, so strong that, like you, won't even let that little ass shit affect you. But when you notice you cut it off, you're like nah, out of here, gone. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, and I just think that it's it's amazing to see each other's growth because over these years, even though we haven't really communicated, like we're not the type to talk to each other every day, we don't talk to each other once a week, like it's fortunate if we do you know, what I'm saying.
Speaker 1:It's conversations like these every single time, yeah, but every time we we bounce back into each other's lives, we progress just that much more. You know what I'm saying and we understand that if one of us needs each other, we have each other's back, no matter what it is. Yeah.
Speaker 1:I'm saying I just it's great, it's amazing seeing that we didn't let those challenges whether it be losing a co-host, losing a job, losing a car, you know we didn't let none of that destroy us, who we were as people. We didn't crash out, we didn't fumble as people and just go to some basic 9 to 5, working at Chuck E Cheese or McDonald's and just settle with it. You know what I'm saying and if that's you, please do not take offense to any of this. Some people's lives are a lot different than we can actually comprehend. I don't blame none of y'all.
Speaker 1:But for somebody like who's goal driven, goal oriented, somebody who really just has a lot to lose, or somebody who is just dreaming of doing something big for themselves or their family dreaming of doing something big for themselves or their family it's hard to continue to be the strong one.
Speaker 1:It's hard to continue to be the only one people can rely on to make that difference. It's literally being the Superman of your family and I'm telling you right now, as corny as it sounds, bro, that's what it is. You know, like my mom's always told me, she's just like out of all the kids that I've had, you've always been the one that I've seen as the strongest, Even though you're the youngest you have been the one to make the biggest changes.
Speaker 1:And it wasn't because, like, oh, I had my dad in my life. Like, father figures do help a lot, but me and my dad didn't even get along well. Well, if y'all don't really know, I grew up with an abusive father that I ended up moving out of my childhood home to stay with my grandparents when I turned 19 because I was done with it I was tired of being disrespected and and fucking.
Speaker 1:You know what I'm saying just verbally and mentally abused and stuff like that and physically, and so I took the route of like taking what he told me and taught me as a kid growing up and I took that as a grain of salt and it's helped me a lot. I'll take it there, but I still have yet to speak to him. I've seen him in person. I've literally seen him in person. Don't say a word to him. You know what I'm saying After all these years and I just don't. I feel like, even though I've gone through that, like if you have to cut your own family member, your own parent off.
Speaker 1:You got to be strong. Yeah, you got you. There's got to be something within you that's like you're fed up with whatever is going on and you you have other things that you need to take care. You you called on yourself before anybody else. You knew you needed to prioritize yourself before anyone else, and so I think you know, as somebody that can do that for themselves, I would deem myself as a strong person, and I'm not trying to get full of myself or nothing like that. I'm just saying if you are a person who has had those moments where you had to sit back and take those steps that you knew would hurt, that was a lifelong commitment, knowing that you could never make that turn back around. Just know we're rooting for you. At least I'm rooting for you. It's hard out here being a solo Superman for your family or for yourself and your kids. It is tough.
Speaker 2:No, I get you and you got to be strong-minded. You're definitely a different breed, for sure, for sure, damn man. Be strong-minded. You're definitely, you're definitely different breed, for sure, for sure, damn man. We had a fucking deep ass episode.
Speaker 1:I think this is the deepest episode I've had in a minute sheesh, damn, we took it there.
Speaker 2:No, we had to, we had to. It's, it's stir, it's stir, right, right to the direction it needed to for sure.
Speaker 1:And again, this is sometimes just what our average conversation is like. Yeah, but this is why I'm glad to be a part of something like this man, because we can speak our minds. You know what I'm saying? It's our minds.
Speaker 2:It's what we go through it don't matter anybody else's opinions.
Speaker 1:Great, great podcast episode and that's a great outing. You know what I'm saying sometimes people need to speak it out sometimes that's. All you need is a partner to speak on it about. It helps a lot, man, trust me, no, it does it?
Speaker 2:does it relieves some some weight off the shoulders? Absolutely for sure. And man, just keep, keep, keep dreaming, keep pushing and you're going to get. I've always told you this you're going to get everything you deserve soon. Take it one day at a time.
Speaker 1:Absolutely Baby steps on a long road, no matter how long the path is. Take those baby steps, because you'll be at the end of the road before you know it. Yeah, and like what my favorite music group said, when life gets hard, keep on marching on, even if the finish line is far and you have to push the car. Keep on marching on. I mean again, stand for something or die for nothing. That's all I'm saying.
Speaker 2:Absolutely Hell. Yeah. Well, thank you guys for all listening. We appreciate you guys for being a part of this deep episode and thank you, dj, for opening it up and really allowing yourself to be open for everybody, and I hope everybody enjoys it.
Speaker 2:I hope everyone gets a little teary eyed getting your feels today, peoples, please be, open, be passionate about who you are as a person accept yourself and let us know what life challenges you guys are going through currently, right now. But remember, you can catch us on all platforms. You can also um follow us on our instagram and our tiktok at broke boys underscore ff and don't forget to give dj a follow and to follow his car crew yes, sir, you can follow me at Woaday on Instagram or TikTok W-H-O-A-D-A-E-E.
Speaker 1:Shout out Modified Luxury Crew on Instagram. Yeah, that's pretty much. It Appreciate you guys giving me a listen, giving me your time.
Speaker 2:We appreciate you for coming. Dj, I really do, man. This is well needed and I'm glad I can't wait to edit these episodes and post them, bro. Oh, I can't wait to edit these episodes and post them, bro. Oh, I can't wait to hear it. Well, we love you guys. Much love. Take care, peace, peace.
